Beasty Eyes

which is more logical?

to be sorrowful over death

or

to be sorrowful over the hatred walking in this life

?

“god i hope the problems of my own tiny life don’t blind me to everything”

“i try not to think about him

since

i fear i can not think about him with kindness

but

only with dread”

seeing red

he wouldn’t be as intriguing if his mind didn’t have a dark long tunnel to sorrow.

he wouldn’t be as enlightened if he never had a sorrow well.

he won’t be the man he was born to be if he doesn’t release his fear.

death will have to wait for him

because right now…..

i’m witnessing him grow.

today is my birthday.

happy new year to me

real life. real time.

the pressure runs through space
like a bloom to a flower
the balance waivers on the water
sinking to reach a seed 6 feet under soil

we are living the way we perform on stage
our possession is keeping this story alive
our dedication to the connection keeps us on fire

is this what real feels like?

a disorder in credence
stings inside the distance

you ignore so well

and i fall apart

..both victims
we are marred and scared
hiding our screams from…… everyone else

is this what real feels like?

the paralysis of your dignity
repels the vigor of denial that weighs upon your shoulders

pride wears across the flesh above my ass
like silence speaks from the dead

is this what real feels like?

hold my……
love handles better than no-love handles at all
hold onto something

free your head space
i’ll unravel my pride

hold my….
love handles better than no-love handles at all
hold onto something

….is this what real feels like?

i used to wear this pink/purple medium length cotton skirt with a thick black waist band

i looked incredible in that skirt.